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It’s 3:30 am and I’m wide awake. I just wanna fall asleep because I feel like shit right now.
I spent way too much money today on clothes, I don’t wanna talk about it, I’m a real shopaholic, and it’s not fun.

I’m at my goal weight, and I’ve been trying to slowly eat normally again. I just have no idea how to do it. Thursday, I told myself I would eat 350 calories. But without even realizing it, I was skipping meals, and eating apples instead of a meal. But today I allowed myself a mocha frappucino from starbucks. The first one in a long time!  It felt good. And tonight I ate a little pasta, and some cake. It wasn’t that much, but I still tried to purge when I got home because I don’t want to gain weight! Of course, I wasn’t able to purge, haven’t been able to in about a month i think. Worst feeling ever.

I started packing. I’m excited to go home. I want to show all these bitches how hot I am now! I’m scared I will be disappointed though. I have such high expectations for this break…


Final point… I spotted the hottest guy at school a month ago. When I say hot, I mean he’s a god, no joke. I saw him and immediately thought he had to be a douchebag. I mean he’s way too hot. And the way he dresses… Omg, he has Jude law’s face, Ryan reynold’s body and Chuck bass’s impeccable style. Need I say more?

Anyway, I’ve seen him a couple times since then and he always takes my breath away, and lately we’ve been making eye contact, so I decided I wanted to know more about him. After a successful facebook stalking session, I found out he’s everything but a douchebag. I WANT HIM SO BAD! He’s on top of my list for christmas.


Please, let me fall asleep now. 

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